The Queen of Traitors (The Fallen World Book 2) Read online

  Table of Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Epilogue

  I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul …

  —Pablo Neruda

  Chapter 1

  Serenity

  Confusion.

  Am I conscious? Everything’s dark.

  A moment later, pain flares my body to life. I’m awake, I have to be to acutely feel every inch of throbbing skin.

  I grind my teeth together against the agony, but I can’t stop the tears that leak from my eyes. I’m lying on my side, my weight pressed against my bad arm, my wrists bound behind my back. If not for the pain, I wouldn’t even know I had a bad arm.

  I can hear people talking, and I smell oil and steel. But I can’t see any of it. Something covers my face. I try to shrug it off with my shoulder, but I don’t make any progress.

  What’s going on?

  I search my mind, but there’s nothing to grasp onto. I cannot remember a moment before this. What actions led my life here, cuffed and wounded. My past and my identity have been cleaved away, along with my freedom, and I have no idea what any of it means.

  The floor dips and rises, and my bodyweight is thrown against my injury. The agony is instant and all-compassing. I can’t hold back my gasp, but it cuts off as the pain overwhelms me and my mind shuts down.

  I wake off and on to voices, pain, and jostling. I should know what’s happening to me, but the explanation is a wil-o’-the-wisp; the more I chase it, the farther away it gets.

  My entire existence is a series of shallow breaths drawn from damp, recycled air, my world contained within the bag that covers my head. I do not know my name, the color of my eyes, the shape of my face. Most importantly, I have no idea what’s going on.

  And now I’m being jerked to my feet, and now we’re walking. I hiss in a breath at the pain. My legs can’t hold me up. They keep wanting to fold under me, but my captors grip my elbows and force me to remain upright.

  I can hear cheering as I’m carted away. A migraine pulses behind my eyes and along my temple, and the noise stirs it.

  A crowd must be watching this procession. People begin to boo.

  At me, I realize. The entire mass of them are booing at me.

  Who am I?

  Something smashes into the side of my head. I stagger, and my headache unfurls the full force of its power. I have to swallow back the bile that rises up in my throat.

  “Move!” an angry voice shouts. A booted foot kicks the back of my knee, and I stumble forward.

  Beneath the pain and the confusion, anger simmers. My cuffed hands curl into fists. If I wasn’t restrained, I’d gladly endure more suffering to land a few good blows on my captors. I’m no helpless thing.

  The air cools as I’m directed indoors. That doesn’t stop the booing crowd or the objects flung at me. Whatever’s happening, I’m supposed to be humiliated. They’re wasting their efforts. I’m in far too much pain to care about what they think of me.

  This goes on for a while, and I resign myself to enduring this for the time being. It’s not until I hear the heavy turn of locks and I’m pushed forward once more, that my situation changes.

  Now the noise from the crowd dulls and the thump of dozens of footsteps break away. I can’t say how much farther we walk, or how many turns we take. I’m weaving on my feet.

  The men holding my arms halt. Ahead of me, locks tumble and then another heavy door creaks open. A tug on my injured arm has me moving forward. We only walk a few steps forward before I’m stopped again. Behind me, the thick thud of a door cuts the last of the sound off completely.

  Someone rips the bag from my head, taking some strands of my hair along with it.

  The overhead light blinds me, and I squint against it, gnashing my teeth against the new wave of pain behind my temple. I sense more than see the men on either side of me.

  I finally breathe in fresh air, and it shakes off a bit of my weariness. The last time air was this crisp …

  I stand in a moat of bloody bodies. Men in dark fatigues creep closer. I don’t know who they are, but I know I need to fight them.

  The memory’s blurry, and I can’t be sure it’s real.

  I blink, my earlier confusion roaring back to life. Why can’t I place where I am? Who I am? I know I should remember these things, so why can’t I?

  And then there are the things that I inexplicably know. The fact, for instance, that I’m in a holding cell. The kind with a one-way mirror. I have no memory of this place or any like it, yet somehow I recognize exactly what it is. A room for prisoners.

  That’s what I am. I can’t say what my crimes are, though I’m obviously someone important. Someone infamous.

  As my eyes adjust, I notice three men in uniform standing around me. Soldiers of some sort. They appear wary of me, like I might get violent at any moment.

  I think they’re wise to be wary.

  One of them shoves me to my knees. Roughly, he grabs my bound hands behind my back and unlocks the cuffs. Pain slices through my arms as they’re released and sensation flows back into them.

  I pivot on my knees, primed for attack. I may not know what’s going on, but I have muscle memory, and it’s leading me now.

  I lunge for the nearest of my captors. Clumsily my arms wrap around his calves as I slam into him, and God, does my injured arm burn. The pain almost stops me. Almost.

  He loses his balance and falls. Not good for him.

  My instincts are directing me. Before he can recover, I move up his body and slam the fist of my good arm into his temple. Again and again.

  I was right. It is absolutely worth every bit of agony to pummel one of these men.

  Just as quickly as I find myself on my captor, I’m dragged off of him by the other two. The entire time they curse at me.

  Like I actually give a shit.

  I struggle against them, and even injured as I am, I still manage to slip their hold. One tackles me to the ground. “Your gun, man, your gun!” he shouts to his comrade.

  I don’t understand the order until I see the hilt of some military grade weapon raised above me. The butt of it slams into my temple, and I’m out cold once more.

  When I come to, I’m cuffed to a chair in my cell. Across the table I sit at, an enemy soldier watches me with obvious disgust. That one-way mirror looms behind him. Someone’s watching us. I can practically feel their eyes on me.

  I catch sight of myself in the mirror. It’s brief, just a flash of blood-matted hair and skin that looks more like overri
pe fruit.

  I can taste blood in my mouth, and a tooth is loose. I don’t think I have a concussion, but that’s sheer luck. They hit me hard and repeatedly.

  A chill slithers up my spine. Perhaps I already have a concussion, and that’s why I can’t remember anything about myself.

  Standing guard next to the door of my cell is another soldier, a military-grade rifle in his hand. His finger loosely cradles the trigger. I can read nothing from his face. That, more than anything, convinces me that if I so much as flinch the wrong way, he’ll shoot me.

  Looks like my situation just went from bad to worse.

  “I’m Lieutenant Begbie. Do you know why you’re here?” The man across from me wears dark fatigues, and he has a gristly look about him, like he’s held together mostly by sinew and anger.

  “You want answers from me,” I say.

  “Yes, ma’am.” He settles a bit more into his chair. “And you’re going to give them to us.”

  “And if I don’t?” But it’s not if, it’s when.

  Begbie studies me, sucking on his teeth while he does so. “We’re going to try this the civilized way first. If you answer our questions, we won’t use force to get them out of you.”

  I raise an eyebrow, even though my heart pounds like mad. Torture.

  “We’ll start off easy. Tell me your full name.”

  I can feel the burn of the cuffs on my wrist, rubbing my skin raw. My body is a mass of wounds, and my head feels as though it’s ready to split open. These are all injuries this man and his people gave me. Perhaps this little tasting of their wares is supposed to scare me.

  I don’t feel scared. And I don’t feel very talkative.

  But I am angry. I’m very angry.

  “What’s your name?” he repeats.

  I lean to the side and spit out blood. Answer enough.

  My interrogator’s scowl only deepens.

  The door to my cell opens, and angry voices from the hall trickle in.

  “—I don’t give a damn. I need to see her for myself.”

  My eyes flick to the man that enters.

  Old, strong, his hair cropped close to his head. His features are hard, even his eyes. A man used to making tough decisions. I can already tell he’ll show me no more kindness than the rest of them.

  “Serenity,” he says to me, “what happened to him?”

  Serenity—is this my name? It doesn’t sound like a name.

  I stare at him curiously. Does this man know me?

  “Kline.” Begbie says the word—another name perhaps—like a warning.

  The older man stalks across the room and leans over me. An intense pair of blue eyes fix on mine, and I see a mixture of anger and grief in them. “What did you and the king do to him?”

  He rests his hands on the metal backing of my chair and shakes it to emphasize his point.

  Air hisses out of me as the movement jostles my already screaming gunshot wound. The headache that’s been pounding behind my temple pulsates with pain.

  “For the love of Christ, Serenity, what did you do to my son? I want to hear you say it.”

  This man might know me, but he’s no friend of mine.

  “General,” Begbie rounds the table and grabs the man’s upper arm, “that’s enough. We’re in the middle of an interrogation.”

  The general—I assume this is a title—shrugs off Begbie’s grip and gives a jerky nod, his gaze trained on my face.

  “Get her to talk,” he says. And then he turns on his heel and stalks out of the room, the door slamming shut behind him.

  I stare at the space he took up. Whoever that man was, I did something to his son—me and this king they keep asking about—something that broke a hardened man.

  I search the empty halls of my mind for a memory—even just a fragment of one. Nothing comes to mind. And now I have the general’s cryptic words to add to my already addled state. The whole thing makes me weary.

  I’m injured, locked up like the world’s deadliest criminal, and being questioned about a past I can’t remember. They’re going to torture me, then kill me, and at the end of it all I’ll have no idea why. It seems so pointless.

  My interviewer runs a hand over his cropped hair. “Why don’t we start where we left off?”

  “What do you really want to know?” I ask, leaning back into my seat.

  There’s no use in me stalling. Torture’s coming, either way.

  “Where is the king?” the man across from me asks.

  This mysterious king whom I can’t recall. I must work for him. It makes sense.

  “I don’t know,” I say, still distracted by my own thoughts.

  My interviewer leans forward. “Surely you know where he would go.”

  “Maybe,” I hedge, shifting my weight as the injury on my calf begins to burn. The movement causes the pain in my arm to flare up.

  Would it be wise to reveal how little I know?

  Begbie must read my expression because he says, “If you’re not going to cooperate, Serenity, then we’ll force the answers out of you.”

  Serenity must be my name.

  “That I’m well aware of,” I say.

  My reflection catches my attention once more, and I shift my eyes away from Begbie. Aside from the bruises that cover my face, and I have a deep scar that runs from the corner of my eye down my cheek.

  I look … sinister. And hardened. Oddly enough, that gives me courage.

  Begbie tries again. “What do you believe you’re worth to the king?”

  “I don’t know.”

  The Lieutenant leans back in his seat and studies me. “Alright,” he finally drawls, coming to some sort of decision, “what locations in the WUN do you believe the king will select for his armories?”

  “I don’t know.”

  Begbie touches his lips with two fingers; he taps one of them against his mouth as he watches me. I know he’s trying to figure out the best way to crack me.

  “I don’t want to hurt you, Serenity,” he says, “I really don’t, but you have to give me information for this to work.”

  Contrary to his words, this man wants to hurt me very, very badly.

  We stare each other down. I’m going to be killed either way, and that knowledge settles on my shoulders like a cloak. Whatever else happens, my words won’t get me out of here.

  He leans forward in his chair, his hand coming to rest on the table. “What do you know?”

  This is one question I can answer.

  “That my name is Serenity, and my memory is gone.”

  Chapter 2

  Serenity

  Lieutenant Begbie ends the interview shortly after my admission, promising me “advanced interrogation techniques” if I can’t come up with answers soon.

  Suffice it to say, the man doesn’t believe me.

  After he finishes questioning me, he unlocks my cuffs, and this time I’m wise enough not to attack. The guard with the assault rifle looks ready and willing to use it. If I want to rebel, today won’t be the day.

  I make note of the fact that the lieutenant has a gun holstered to his hip, and he likely has another weapon somewhere on his person.

  If what I know won’t save me, then my actions must. I’m going to have to hurt people to leave this place.

  That should bother me more than it does. I add heartlessness to my growing list of character traits.

  Until then, I’ll bide my time and figure out what, exactly, is wrong with my mind. Specifically, why I don’t know who I am.

  Once Begbie and the guard leave, I lean against the cement wall of my cell, my legs bent in front of me. I rub my wrists.

  I haven’t changed clothes since my capture. I wear black leather boots, fitt
ed pants, and a crimson shirt.

  At least, these were the original colors I wore. Blood and dust now cake them. My outfit’s ripped in several locations, and the back of one boot’s burned away. I can’t remember how I got this way, which makes my past all the more intriguing.

  I finger the material of my shirt. I have nothing to compare it to, but its softness, weave, and saturated color all scream wealth.

  While I’d been unconscious, someone cut away the fabric covering my injured arm and leg. Gauze covers both wounds; these enemy soldiers went to the trouble of patching me up. I’d assume it was a small kindness, but after seeing the way they’ve treated me, they probably just wanted to make sure I live long enough to be of use to them.

  Eventually I’ll need to check the wounds and let them breathe. Even if they were tended by combat medics, staunching the blood flow and wrapping a wound up is no permanent remedy.

  How do I know any of this?

  I’m still absently rubbing the material of my shirt when light glints off my hand. My body stills as I hold it up.

  I don’t know which surprises me more: that I’m wearing jewelry, or that my captors haven’t yet confiscated it.

  If I’m someone important, they will eventually. Another truth I inexplicably know.

  I study the two rings that adorn my hand. One is a band of yellow diamonds. Expensive. The other is a polished piece of lapis lazuli. Tiny flakes of gold shimmer amongst the dark blue of the stone, reminding me of the night sky. This one doesn’t seem so expensive, but meaningful perhaps.

  My heart thumps loudly in my chest.

  I’m married.

  I let that sink in. I don’t think I like that. Even without the aid of memories, there’s something constricting about the prospect.

  Still, that means someone’s missing me right now.

  Around my rings, the skin is scarred—particularly my knuckles. Apparently the guard wasn’t the first face these fists have dug into. My hands, however, are free of even the hint of wrinkles.

  I add up what I know: I’m young, female—I gleaned that much from the mirror—married, dangerous, and valuable to these people’s cause.